Stary Night
I'm home alone, sitting in the back garden. Just staring at the stars.
I haven't been this peaceful and breath-taken in months.
I've been wanting to stare at the stars for a long time, but somethings been stopping me.
They're twinkling so beautiful and bright. They're so clear. I've missed them so much.
They just give me a sense of comfort. Its like they speak all my memories. Big ones and even little things I don't remember.
They're telling my life story.
When I look at them, I feel like somethings missing. I just wanna keep a handful in my pocket, so day-by-day I can take them out, and just stare at them for a couple of minutes.
These last couple of months, the skies have been so beautifully clear and I've seen the stars most nights.
The wind is freezing my hands and legs up, but I can't stop staring. My hairs in my face, my fingers are frozen, my legs have goosebumps, but I wanna stay so much that I do.
Soon, I forget the coldness and wind and tears flow out. I've missed this.
I just wish they were here to comfort me all the time.
I don't wanna let go.
The two Missus'
Welcome Miss Baynham to Miss Harwoods blog
Why thank you harwood
Now, just some boring starters...Full name please?
Izzie Baynham Herd...I swear
That your full actual birth name thing?!
Well, no...
Go on...
Carmen Isabella Maria Baynham Herd
Oooo, Carmen. What a luffly name!
Were you named after anyone?
Gee Miss Harwood learn to write
Er no
Im unique
Indeed...
Anyhoo...
Family members?
Ok. Well I have mother and father and then a brother called ***, another one called Ludo and oh yeah wait, yep theres another one Zac, and a sister called Immy
Big family then
mum and dad got busy ...wait that sounds bad
haha nice!
So, whose your favourite in your family?
Well, er, favourite intellectually? Cos actually no one rivals me but, if we have to go on mere personality, I guess I will say Ludo, cos he will probably read this and get well offended if I say someone else
*mutters* Suck up
Well, you may call me a suck up, but I prefer the term cares for own well being, or perhaps, logically predictive or even just plain reasonable or perhaps extremley bright.
Well, in my books...its suck up
Thats what we'd call you down on the H-side
Like you have ever read a book Miss Harwood
ooooo
Score
So, on the subject of books...
Favourite book?...And you're not allowed to say the most obvious here
Well ok I wont go for the ovbious one so I will have to say the lord of the rings, then maybe the beach not the film, cos that sucked but the book is a cult classic if I may quote some guy on the front cover
I have a really good book for you Miss Harwood
yeah?...
Water Ship Down...its got rabbits
Hahaha
Would you like to give the readers a little blurb?
Sorry, i dont know that horsham phrase
Rather common wouldnt you say
oh rather
No im kidding but i actually dont know what it means
What, blurb?
Yeah
Its the thing on the back of a book that tells you what the books about
Oh ok. I would call it a synopsis but whatever
On the subject of whatever...
Whats your favourite phrase/quote?
What? My favourite quote? Why on earth would I have one? I was asked that for my msn space and I was like er what... ok I if said to sat something I would probably say "I have a dream"
cause I do
Why on earth wouldn't you have one?
Cause I dont go around saying ooh, guess what people, I cant think of anything inventive of my own to say so lets just steal someone elses saying, instead of actually using my limited amount of originality and flair and imagination to say something myself
Woah...okay.
and i think we'll go on to the next question..
ahem....
Favourite film?
Ah. a tricky one. hmm. well i will fo for a subtle film, one of my favourites is Master and Commander
and Lord of the Rings in case that wasn't notorius yet
mmm
I thought you'd come out with that one
Well what can i say? - 11 Oscars
Thats the problem!
So, more personal now Miss Baynham...if you think you're tough enough
er, ok I might possibly stand it
right...
Are you a Socialite or a Workalite?
Partite...hahahaha yeah sure i wish
i would have to say...a workalite
haha
Embarassingly enough
Well, you'll have enough time to be a socialite when you're old and saggy, I'm sure!
I'd kill myself...no no i wouldnt...are u gonna put that in?
Of course!
Everything goes in Miss Baynham, the readers want real life!
Oh man, do Andy and Hazel read this?
Well, I'm sure we shall soon find out!
Did you know that Andy used to be a employee at Alders?...He got fired
oooooooooooh!
Just drop it in there!
er. hat. im kidding
trying to pretend you knew all along ok.. sure Miss Harwood you were in on that one! cos your special!
Yeah, so anyway...
Do you prefer photos, or your own personal written memories? (i.e. Journals?)
well, I tried to keep a diary when I was a bit younger, but I either couldn't read my writing so that was a bit pointless, or my brothers found it and read it out, which made me feel ever so sightly humiliated, and I cant ever remember to take photos
my own memory?
can i say that?
Im sure thats an option...yes, and the judges have accepted that!
I can say what you were wearing a week ago...
you were wearing an orange top and jeans
Yes, well...I think anyone could remember that!
Trying to shoot me down in my weak spot
You'd do it if you were in my situation
And Im being obliging, doing an interview and my soul just gets back-handed
*Mutters* Pity-Party
So anyway...as we're on the subject of shopping.
What? No were not
You just made that up!
What the real readers want to know...
Did you send/receive any valentines cards???
8th commandment thou shalt not lie
Yes, and do keep that in memory for this question Miss Baynham!
I dont remember
that was ages ago
Can't have meant that much if you did then
yeah well, I, . I
you...you...?
it meant a lot
I just cant remember
Oh, so you got one?
Can you remember who from?
A paedophile
he lives on my road
and it meant a lot?
hmmm...strange
now that, Miss Harwood, is what we people call a joke
ha ha
well Im laughing hard this end
I'm sure you are Miss Baynham, I'm sure you are
So, can you remember sending any out?
ok shoot
shoot?
so you do remember...
Metaphorically
I have never sent a CARD in my life
A letter then? or a gift?
Still on the subject of V day here
Whhhy, it was like a year ago
And to whom was that may I ask?
Phil Playfoot
Really? Declaring your undying love for him ay?
Yeah, he rocks my world
So, hes the secret crush you've had on this whole time?!
Can we please change the subject I bet hell somehow find out and I will look like a foool
Okay...its a uncomfy position. ok
haha, Lydia will read this
hahahha
So, what is the best life lesson you've learnt in your 14 years?
15 actually
Well, you're starting your 15th year now actually
so technically what have i learnt in my 15 minus 11 months years
technically yes
well next time be specific
Sorry, did I dumb it up too much for you?
What have I learnt? hm. well ok. Seriously, things can look so much better for other people at some stages in you life, and you just think why me, but they always have problems too. whole grass is greener thing.
ah yes
the grass is always greener on the other side
So, describe your best dream ever
er, ok, I will say one I had about three years ago, I was in my house, and I opened the door to my bedroom, and it was a massive jungle, wiht all the animals like snakes and jaguars and cheetahs and things but they didnt hurt me, and in the very middle, where only I could find, was a really cool double bed and a wardrobe and stuff you find in a bedroom, and then I opened the wardrobe....and .....
I wonder where this is going....*rolls eyes*
No, Narnia wasnt there but there was a big eagle. and then I climbed up and he swooped upwards and suddnely I crashed through all the canopy and I was high above the jungle and then he dropped me and I grew wings and then I lost them and I fell and I woke up
I think its symbolic
oooh, a falling dream
Symbolic?
Well, I dont know what for, but it probably is
Do you think all dreams mean something?
Erm, noo.. I dont think, no , cos once I read ths description of a dream when I was on a go cart and I fell off but I fell upwards ,and I looked it up on the internet and I said I needed to find a new husband to light my passion
they mean nothing
haha
Is there something you've been hidding from us all these years Miss Baynham?!
What? Like im secretly married? Oh yes, that must be the one, you really caught me out there
Woohooo! Uncovered something finally!
Well, I think thats enough excitement for the readers for today.
Inspector lestrang
So thank you very much for your graciousness during this interview Mrs Baynham.
I really do appreciate it
I bet you do, anyhting for a new update these days
and too right
Well thank you for your many unappreciated questions harwood
It was the greatest time i had ever had
I hope the readers enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed interviewing you
Well, personally I wouldn't say that...but ok
I hope I enjoy reading the comments as much as they enjoyed reading it as much as you enjoyed itnerviewing me
indeed
Well, until next time y'all...
It's goodnight from Miss Baynham Herd, and Goodnight from Miss Harwood
You and Me.
I talk to you when Im alone.
We have our own conversations. Sometimes they're total serious. But most of the time, they're just a laugh. Us two mucking around. Like we used to. Taking the mic out of each other and shooting each other down. But we wouldn't get offended. Thats what makes it so great.
It's like you're in the chair next to me. We take it in turns at Crash on the playstation. Everytime, we're talking to much so we loose lives. But its just fun laughing at each other. Its fun just being with each other.
I pray for you every morning I get up. I pray for us. I pray for your safety and mine. I talk to my only friend everyday about us. Hes smiling at us both. For being so strong even through the roughest times. He truely believes in us.
You're with me when I look at the stars. I can feel you wrap your arms around me. You telling me about the stars. We find the biggest star of the night. And as we sit on that bench, we just stare at it. Its beautiful.
As I look at the sunrise, it doesn't feel right looking without you. You should be here. Not under all that ground. I wish I'd done things differently. I wasted so much time.
I still talk to you. And you help me.
Keep me strong Lord.
What I likes is what I likes
I'm definitly my own person. If I don't like something, I don't get it. Or if I don't wanna follow the group and go somewhere, I don't. Its just me. Live with it!!!
No offence to anyone who has any of these things I may shoot down in this post. But...I likes what I likes.
I can't stand blogs who don't have anything behind them. Like, If they're a blogger who speaks about their daily routine '
Just got back from work with Steve. Stupid office-bitch Catrina stole my beetroot and cheese sandwich from the fridge in the staff room today, so I had to walk all the way to the SubWay for my lunch with Carl.' To be honest, NO-ONE CARES! Okay, maybe some people do, but its not something I look for in people's blogs.
I love stuff thats real, from the heart. No matter who it'll hurt or how much it'll make people cry. Thats the real stuff there! I wanna hear about people's pains and worries, but also about their happiness, what makes their heart skip a beat, what makes them jump. I wanna know the REAL blogger.
I know some of my posts have been
cop-
out posts and I've only in the
last couple of
months handed my heart over to
my blog, but I know thats what people are most interested in. As I reader of blogs myself, I know that I love to learn more about the bloggers personal feelings, mistakes, ambitions and just their general-inner self.
I feel like
I've wasted some posts by just updating with
song lyrics. Although they have been songs that totally fit my emotions at the time, but I feel dissapointed with myself, because deep-down, I really know that I can and should write my own poem or song. But I just can't be bothered!
So I promise you, my fellow bloggers, I will be bothered with this thing. And give it my all.
Peace.
The Space In Between Us
Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm learning to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again
My life's an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because
Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you
