Battle of the sexes
Me and
Lyds were having a conversation about this on the way to church. Can't exactly say how it came up, but anyhoo...It was about how guys have it
so easy. You guys
really do, theres so much stuff in life that girls have to take on, but first... the good points...
Good things about being female:- You can do so much with your hair!
- Can cover up spots with make up
- You have a excuse for mood swings
- Its okay to cry
- Can watch movies and it'll be okay if we cry
- Can treat yourself to ice cream and don't really need a excuse
- Can have heart to heart chats and there not uncomfortable
- We always have the last say in a argument with a guy
- We don't have t pay for the meal when you on a date - or shouldn't have to
Good things about being male (from what I know and my dad!):
- Don't get scared 100% by scary films
- Don't have to shave lots of body hair
- You can mumble bout secrets or personal things infront of girls and we sometimes don't understand
- Doesn't matter if you get fat
- Don't have to have a bag with you to carry so much stuff
- Get to appreciate girls (I think we all know thats from my dad)
- Can fart or burp and no-one cares (except annoying girls who go 'ewwwww'...its natural!
And now...theres always bad points...
Bad points about being female:
- Periods
- Pregnancy
- Every girl is obsessed with their weight, so it puts so much pressure on the other girls
- PMS
- Guys think of us as housewifes and should do all the jobs round the house...when half of us don't want to
- Every girl is a bitch in their own way, but only some girls bring it out-and when they do, other girls feel crap
- Have to go underwear shopping to 'fit the right size' bla bla bla...
- We have to have the perfect photo - but where is it?? Ive never seen mine
- Some people think we shouldn't play instruments
- Or even have 'manly' jobs
- We have to be 'lady-like'
- Apparently we suck at football and other sports...have you ever seen us play???
Bad points about being male (with help form Sam):
- If you cry at films, your guy friends take the micheal out of you
- You can't express your deep inner feelings with other friends as well
- You can't cover up spots
- You feel like you have to act all macho macho man all the time
- Girls can wear trousers, but guys can't wear skirts (<<<< Sam all the way!)
- The pressure is on you to make the first move in everything.
So, as you can see, girls have it WAY harder than guys do. Notice the 'bad points of being a female' is longer than 'bad points of being male' So guys...stop complaining!!
I know this was completely random, but i think it'll start a couple conversations going!
At peace with myself
Nowadays, the only time I feel at peace with myself, is if im staring out my bedroom window at the stars, or lying in my garden watching the clouds swim across, feel the heat from the beautiful sun and watch the beautiful green and red trees sway in the wind. It gives me time to think, about everything. And even if its just for a minute, i feel so refreshed.
The other morning, i spent about 45 minutes just sitting on a bench in Horsham park by the duck pond. I sat so still the whole time, birds were flying right next to me and landing on the bench. It was early enough so that no-one else was around to make any noise, so the wildlife would carry on as normal. It was gorgeous to watch. A big
fat robin came and perched itself right next to me for a second, then flew down to the ground and started looking to food. Ducks would walk straight past, no hesitation, no fear, just woddled on. 5 Swans were the only thing that disrupted the peace by having a race across the pond. Although spoiling the peace, it was
amazing to watch, then the peace covered the pond again. It was just beautiful to watch all of God's creation carry on as normal right infront of my eyes.
It was so nice just to have some time observing something else for a change. I guess Ive been so wrapped up in
my busy life recently, I haven't taken a step back and looked at what Im doing or appreciated my work. Just thought '
Right, thats done...on with the next thing'.
I guess sometimes we get so wrapped up in other peoples problems for a long period of time, we neglet ourselves in a way. Heres one piece of advice:
don't! Don't neglet yourself, your so important. Ive been so wrapped up in other peoples problems for a while now, im totally messed up in the head. Ive luckily found a way to sort my head out, but its taking me a while to get my head round things.
Ill be otay, but will you?
Personal Friendships
Recently Ive been posting
negative posts bout friends. I thought I'd have a contrast and do a positive one!! I have many stories to share with you that has gone on, so im thinking this is gonna be a
humanity critic style post. I just wanna get one thing cleared up...sorry if i don't tell a story that has happened between me and any of my friends, but im spending some time thinking about this one.
Im sorry: Me and
Ash always used to play on our back road with her little brothers and sisters. Used to play what we called 'cars'. We'd be on our bikes or roller boots or scooter and theres like garages behind the houses, so we used to pretend they were traffic lights (don't ask how it worked, we were like 7!!) But anyway, Ash's family used to have this little toy tractor with a trailor on the back. Ash was sitting in the tractor and i did something, like pulled the back of it, and she went flying back and landed on her bum. She started crying, I was flippin' out man! So i ran home, ran up to my room, got my BEST writing paper out and wrote a 'sorry note'!! Once i'd written it, I ran up to her house, and gave it to her. We had a hug and everything was back to normal!! And that is the only time me and Ash have actually had a fall out!! Go us!!!
Power Turbo: The famous Wakeman family. You may know one of the boys, or even one of the parents! but lemme tell ya, this family rocks!! Me and Ash became really good friends with Henry. And he lived right opposite us both, so we would go out on the green, chill on his front lawn with him, chat. It was really fun! Now as my blog is gonna be a honest one, im gonna be honest and tell you i did have a crush on him, and so did Ash - but she probably won't admit to it, but she did. We barely speak to him anymore, which does bring a tear to the eye! But we still have fond memories of him! Like once, me, Ash and Henry used to sit on the green, chatting and I remember Henry was teaching me to trip up people. His brother, Leo, came out and started chatting. Then i think we started playing football or something and I did (what i thought was then) as rugby tackle on him, and i got him down!! WAHOOOO!!! Now, for y'all who don't know Leo, hes quite a large guy...so I was extremely pleased with my achievement!!
Hold those pegs!:Me and Naz used to be the geeks of Primary School...Im being 100% serious...im even admitting it, so we must've been geeks!! We used to go round ALWAYS singing Lion King songs (amazing movie) but so sad! We used to spent so much time with each other. When ever i used to sleep over at her house, we always made a Den. I remember one time, we had blankets everywhere and to hold them up, we used pegs. Naz was the one building the thing...cuz i was just so crap at that kinda stuff!! When she had finished making it, she came and sat underneath it with me, and then about two minutes later, the pegs flew off and all the blankets fell round us. It was hilarious. This happened again and again and again and again....She'd keep trying and trying but everytime she'd loose! And we also used to be obsessed with this game 'Flip out' Its a alien game on PCs. AMAZING. There was about 15 levels i think. And we'd stay up til about 3 am playing this game every time i slept over. Good times.
Which way round?:I was sleeping at Ash's once, and I stupidly forgot my PJ's, so I had to borrow some of her sisters. I got the top on fine...but when it came to the bottoms...i was outta control!! I have no idea what happened. Me and Ash were in tears because it was so funny. I got the legs in right, but somehow the bum was the wrong way round! Absolutely hilarious!!
Near death experience:Me and Lucy used to go shopping to Brighton loads. And everytime I went with her - it rained. So it was fun, but wet! Anyhoo...we were crossing the BUSY road from the lanes to the mall and there were loads of buses driving past. We had no umbrella or anything, so we were getting soaked by the second. So we just legged it, ran straight out infront of a bus...nearly got run over! But i cracked up when i realised what we had done!! I know it doesn't sound funny...but ah man, you should've been there!!
Don't wet yourself:Me,
Amber and Vicky used to muck around loads in Mrs Bantons science class (year 9). We had to do a experiment with water and some other stuff, so amber went to grab a beaker. There was a pile stacked, so she grab the top one, the stack was kinda stuff, so she pulled really hard...her arm kinda flinched back with the pressure built up, and the one she picked had water in (she didn't realise) and the water went all over her...her face, top, everywhere. She gave out a scream, i turned round and saw Amber standing there with a beaker in her right hand and her face
soaking. I was in histerics for ages. and Mrs Banton thought someone had thrown hot water all over her, so she started shouting. It was actually wetting yourself funny!!!
Arg, my nose!:I was sitting next to
Serena in church and my bag was by my feet. The youth started going out, so i went to grab my bag, bending down full thwack, and at the same time, whacking my nose/forhead on the chair infront. It was
so painful, yet
so funny!! Gonna remember that forever!
Lemons!:Me, Serena, Jon and Andrew used to be a group of friends that you could not seperate! We used to call ourselves Lemons for some reason. And once me and Serena went round to Jon's before going to United and we had dinner there. As soon as we started eating, before i even picked up my fork, i saw lemons on the table cloth, so i shouted out 'LEMONS' and pointed, knocking over my glass - all over my plate of food, all over the table cloth and the floor. I was so embarrased! And another time, we had a movie night round Serena's - rush hour. and Andrew was obsessed with Jackie Chan and his moves, so he put my grey scarf on his head and started doing moves on us...quite painful, so we got into this massive fight. Then we ended up somehow playing human football with Andrew, and he went FLYING!!
Don't think too hard, it'll hurt.
The last couple of days Ive been thinking too hard - about my past, present and future - and getting really angry with myself.
Getting angry and taking it out on myself, every night over stupid mistakes I made in the past. Getting annoyed over stuff I can't have now, that I want. Getting upset/depressed over stuff I want in the future, but know I can't have.
Ive been doing some real depressive writing everynight for the last week or so. Ive thought of ways to solve my sadness: my way - writing, expressing my feelings. God's way - Talking to him, praying, reading the bible. Others ways - Self-harming, Taking it out on myself. But no matter what I do, I feel even worse at the end. People say I should hang out with them, forget about the problem - but I don't wanna hide it, sugar-coat it. Its something thats true, won't go away until Ive got my head round it.
So Ive spent time just thinking, talking to myself. Even just sitting on my bed with Chester, chatting. Hes a good listener and real help!
Looking at him now, I can see the fear in his eyes (a bang has just gone off down the road - so he ran up to my room).
The fear reminds me of me. You probably won't understand this because its from the depth of my mind. The fear reminds me of my love. Maybe sometimes I feel fear when loved. Chesters fallen asleep now, but it reminds me how much we can forget about things and just go for whats sugar-coated, the easiest thing to say or do.
Looking out the window now, looking at the stars. Ive been doing a lot of star gaizing recently, everytime I look at the starts I feel like someone is pulling my heart into my mouth. I feel like Im at home when gaizing at the stars, so comfortable, homely. Can I only feel that looking at the stars? Their twinkling lights shimmer in my eyes, I don't have the need to stop looking. Maybe Im searching for more than I have now. Am I not satisified? Maybe Ive seen more to life in the past, like it and now want more. Or maybe Im just being me.
Let it go
Daisy, Let it go
Open up your fist
This fallen World
Doesn't hold you interest
It doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, Let it go
Sunshinex
Brutally Harsh?
Okay, Im fed up of being honest in my blog and then getting comments about how ive upset people...im sorry i don't mean to, honest. But the whole idea of me starting a blog was so i could share my thoughts and feelings with the world. Im gonna be brutally honest in my blog and im sorry if you don't like it, but i don't wanna just have half-truths on here, that sucks! So if ya don't wanna get affended...stop reading!! im not saying this is gonna be a bitchy-dull-negative post, im just gonna be honest with myself.
Puppy-Love
What actually is 'Puppy-Love'??
Everytime you think you fall in love you feel like you wanna spend the rest of your life with that person; no-ones gonna get in the way and your never gonna change your mind or feelings...your always gonna feel the same feelings for them.
People saying things behind your back like 'its only puppy-love, they'll get over' etc. But what actually is it? Cuz is there a different feeling when you find 'The One'? All the people you've liked/fancied (whatever), those feelings; are they the same to the feelings you have when you find 'The One'??
'You know I love you'
Again Friends
Again Trust
Again pain - my pain
Throughout all my break ups with friends and all my trials with friends, there was always one friend I thought i could trust at school. Yeh okay, sometimes I don't agree with her every word and people would say we were attached at the hip, but we'd always have each others back.
One day this week, a group of us were takling about where we're heading in the future. And this friend hit me where it hurts. Probably my most insecure part of me. (not gonna repeat what she said) but it really got me deep. She said it 100% meaningful, then tried to say with a smile 'You know I love you'.
Its been going round my mind...round, round, round...can't get it out my head. I think im even starting to believe it. I guess its only just hit me deep now.
I thought my friend had my back, maybe I was seeing lies. Maybe she just wanted her turn at me. After all...everyone else has
Money is SO over-rated
As some of you know, my Dad is his own boss - a plumber - and he has one employee, Rich...
Now, as some of you may not know, there hasn't been much business for my dad, so the Harwood crib aint had much money.
Some of you reading this are gonna be thinking 'Awwww, poor Hat...' But its not like that at all. Thinking about it now, I think God has blessed me by not giving me money these last couple of months! Sounds weird, but it kinda makes sense; Ive been able to just hang out with friends without having to actually go somewhere and do something - more time for personal, meaningful conversations. Ive also caught up on school work, which is what I wanted to do and Ive also had time to just chill with God.
Yeh, sure there have been times when I went into town and wanted something
so badly and got in a fat-ass mood about not being able to buy it, but I think its taught me ->
Do I actually need it? Do I actually need half the stuff I want?It just shows me how much I take for granted. I have such a easy life compared to lots of people and yet I don't thank God every day for it. I should at least be able to do that! But i wanna do more than saying 'Thank you' I wanna
show 'Thank You' by being an example to others and sharing the truth and what I believe in.
As Andy says 'Im gonna come into landin' here...' by saying
Don't let a day go by without at least saying Thank You for what you have in life.
Love Each Other
Friends...
How would you describe the word 'friend'?
- Love
- Trust
- Laughs
- Hugs
- Happiness
- Smiles
Note these are all positive words - Not all friendships are always positive friendships, but they still have a huge impact on your life.
Ive learnt you've always gotta be there for your friends, through thick n thin. There'll be times when they come to you for help, with their heart breaking and they want your help, advice and prayer. But the times they need you the most, is when they don't come to you, but you can see right through them. They need a heck of a lot prayer. They might think that they're okay, but you know the truth. But the thing there gonna need the most: You to be there, be understanding when they realise.
Being Mr 'I-told-you-so' and shoving it back in their face is gonna help no-one.
So just spare a little prayer for your friends everynight...and stay positive.
John 15:12-17
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
Greater love has no-one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
You are my friends if you do what I command.
I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business.
Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.
You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit - fruit that will last.
Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.
This is my command: Love each other.
