Monday, October 30, 2006

Have You Ever

So you're finally tired, of the friends that
you admired
Spreading love that leaves you empty,
promises without a guarantee
Tell me what are you gonna do, 'cause it's
really all up to you
Make up your mind today, please yeah
I know who you can go to, He'll never
let you down
And his love you can depend on
Forever and ever...yeah

Have you ever, needed anyone this
much before
Did you ever think that I'd be Jesus
No never, never knew his love is what you
have been waiting for

So you search for security love of money and
what it brings
Thought you'd buy you some happiness, but
you foundout it didn't last
One thing I wanna say, that i's all His anyway
Between you and me, ooh listen
I know who you can go to, He'll never
let you down
And His love you can depened on
Forever and ever...yeah

Have you ever, needed anyone this
much before
Did you ever think that I'd be Jesus
No never, never knew his love is what you
have been waiting for

All of his love is for you
No he won't hold you back, 'cause He's all of that,
it's true
All of his love is for you


Michelle Williams - Have You Ever















Wow.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

I want to be like her

Proverbs 31:10-31

Like her.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Our God Is An Awesome God

Our God is an awesome God
he forgives me for my lies
he forgives me for the promises I cannot keep
even when i mean them 100% with all my heart
I have so many people I want to say I'm sorry to
but i can only tell my awesome God
Thank you for everything
For being my daddy
For being my heavenly father
For being my safety net
For being my councellor
For being with me
Ive done wrong
Ive hurt
Im a hurt-e
But my awesome God comforts me
Protects me
And forgives me
Even before I ask.
All I can say is Thank You.

Our God is an Awesome God, he reigns
From heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
Our God is an Awesome God

She said it's alright cuz God made a way through the pain and opened her eyes

I feel personally that I've known true love. It felt pretty true and pretty real. There was an age difference but it was such a beautiful relationship. So maturely, mentally intimate. I can't describe how it was, except we knew each other.
No other words.
And so what I've realised is that I had such an amazing relation with someone of a different age, that I'm petrified of having a relationship my age. Because my generation is so obsessed with physicals and companionship that it barely knows the meaning of true love.
And it hurts me to see the world like this because true love is so much more amazingly beautiful than any physical, lustful affection can ever be.
I see many people around me in relationships always wanting more. Why? If it's 'true love' - as they say - then why are they wanting more? They're contradicting themselves. And I struggle so much to know there is something so beautiful out there that this world neglets.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Goodbye Good Friend

I used to think that you were someone else
Then I'd loose my mind each day
I used to think that I could help myself
But its true what they say
There is no reason without a way
This is

Good Bye to you and Me
what a good friend you've been to me
and I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is you

I used to wish that I was someone else
then I'd dream away the day
those dreams have made me into someone new
and its true what they say
there is no better time than today
if this is

Good Bye to you and Me
what a good friend you've been to me
and I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is you

I am here
I need to say
that I will miss you
everyday
and its true what they say
there is no better time than today
if this is

Good Bye to you and Me
what a good friend you've been to me
if this is

Good Bye to you and Me
well what good friends we will always be
and I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is you

its you
Every good thing that I do is you
its you
every good thing that I do
well I owe it all to you
every good thing that I do is

Ninedays - Good Friend


Happy Birthday Nick Bick

Saturday, October 21, 2006

One In A Million

She gets all dress up
And goes out with her friends
But she always goes home alone
When the party ends.
They tell her get with it girl
Life is passing you up
It's lonely sometimes
But her heart's set on saving her love.

She's one in a million
Waiting for one in a million
Someone will come along one day
And take her hand
Someone who's been through
All that she's been through
She's one in a million
Waiting for her one in a million
Kind of man

She wrote in her diary
About a boy named John
But he couldn't wait
And now his golden chance is gone.
She's felt the hunger
And she's known the desire
But she's gonna wait
Until it's time to burn that fire.

She's one in a million
Waiting for one in a million
Someone will come along one day
And take her hand
Someone who's been through
All that she's been through
She's one in a million
Waiting for her one in a million
Kind of man

She's not in a hurry
To loose what she can never have again
She's one in a million
One in a million
She's one in a million
Waiting for her one in a million
Kind of guy
She's waiting for her
One in a million kind of guy

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Anna Molly

'Hey you okay?'
'Yeah I'm fine, yourself?...'

and so the conversation goes on.
One thing I've learnt about myself in the last 6 weeks of college, is that I'm not an open person. In my emotional aspects I'm talking about. I'll talk openly about periods, toilets, god, everything. Just not my emotional feelings. The pain and suffering I'm having. psch...not really.

I'm just me
happy as can be
A smile on my face
everyday leaving a trace
people can see where i've been
and i dont even want it to be seen.

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic a proof of the prize,
Anna Molly, Anna Molly, Anna Molly
Doo doo doo doo do, Doo doo doo doo do

Can't wait to see who my husbands gonna be.
It's be a fairly big subject recently
amongst me and my pals.

Gotta stop thinking about it.
You don't help
silly future husband

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Hoo


A new thing I've discovered is Ballet.
When I say discovered, I mean watched about half an hour plus with Bob and actually enjoyed it.
There was this program called 'Ballet Hoo'
The Birmingham Royal Ballet and Youth at Risk joined together to give under privaledged teenagers a chance of a lifetime. To learn ballet.
They did a (wait...im flipping giving information! geez!) anyhoo...they did a romeo and juliet performance, no speaking, just music ballet. Was cool.



So yeah, I guess I could put up with going to watch the Ballet if I had to. I love just listening to music, and I love just sitting watching, and the company of a good friend is always good, so thats a total tick there!

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Never knew it existed

Wow. I've officially learnt of the time called '7am'. - The hard way of course.
"Good morning 7am" I find myself saying every morning. College days, saturdays for works, sundays for church. But I've also learnt that on mondays, theres even an '530am'.
The amazing things of God's creation I've never been awake to see. And now I'm getting on a bit...I'm learning more...getting wiser one could say!

Y'kno, it's always a pleasure staying up late at night/morning about midnight onwards star gazing. But when it comes to getting up early...it's such a hardship - no matter what time you go to bed! 6pm, 930pm, 11pm, 1am, 4am. It is always such an effort to lift my right arm to turn my body over, pick my phone up (that suddenly over night put on weight) and turn the alarm off. The duvet always ways a ton as if its a sponge and has soaked up the entire altantic ocean, and my head feels like it's been crammed with information and its like twice as heavy as it was when my head hit the pillow.

What is it?! Is it heavy meaningful dreams? (Whatever that means!) Is it because I've never fully caught up on my sleep? Is it that my bed is like a vacuum that it just sucks and whistles 'don't leave...I wanna snuggle with yooooowoooou'.


Makes me want to go to bed less because I know every morning I'm gonna have to go through the same routine of actually having a physical fight with my own bed. But just imagine if you have a double bed! It's twice as strong as you! You definitly have no chance. Might aswell just say your goodbyes when you buy the thing!!

So I guess this has made me learn that I'm never gonna get a double duvet, unless my husband is 'the world's strongest man!' ... erm. no comment.

I've learnt quite a bit of stuff this week I guess then. I've been quite politely introduced to 7am. But I've also been harsly introduced to my bed at 9pm. Having something on all the time I'm loving. Talks, Worship leading, Work, Practises, Youth, Shopping, Organising. I love being this busy because I'm learning the concept of time. I'm learning how to manage my time. It's a long path, but it's one with beautiful roses and sunflowers at the sides and pebbles to walk on with streams flowing along side. It's just beautiful.

Bit like my art nowadays.

Monday, October 02, 2006

And His Exact Words Were Something Like...


I love God. I love that he's my father. I love that he's there no matter how crap I'm feeling. I love that he's there no matter how happy I'm feeling. I love that I only need to worship and sing songs and pray and talk to meet my heavenly Father.

Tonight was awesome. We had band practise tonight and was a worship night. Just what I needed. Was so awesome to just spend time with my God sorting things out. I've had a hard time this last couple of weeks. As some people may know. I haven't been at my best. Not in the sense that I can't worship, or prayer, or talk to God, or be happy in that aspect. Something last week just hit me in the heart again and made it hard, so I've been grumpy, sad, quiet - probably still gonna be because I'm dealing with stuff - with God at my hand.

But I've just struggled to have compassion for people and share love to some people. And I apologise. I'm growing...and its pulling me every different way possible at all times so I'm streching like crazy like Elastigirl. Except I'm no superhero...so it's hurts like mad.

My head hurts from the amazing stuff God is doing in this town. We're having something on Halloween eve - not shareing the deets yet, but believe me you man...it's gonna be saweeeeet! Helping out with @ttitude is so much fun...my third week coming up this week. I'm totally loving it. @ttitude were the years that affected me so much...and I have a passion for those kids to be touched and be living a radical life.

The things I see God doing in peoples life is just so encouraging. I'm loving this whole growing up thing and watching and learning. Makes me so syked to see what God's got for me in my life. For his plans to be at work! 'Yaya!' as jonno would say!


But yeah, tonight at Band...we had a worship night - as I said and God put a song straight on my heart. I was absolutely crapping myself about singing it out...but god took control and I felt like I was listening to myself singing and I wasn't actually singing...but I obviously was. Man, I love the worship team - so encouraging...
'when you started singing ... i didnt think it was you ... it sounded so pure and amazing and i really thought that God was singing through you. you were using your voice at its best i thought it really encouraged me to just worship even more so in a way, thankyou it really touched my heart, deep down'
Makes me smile. And it was all God.

So now, Ive sung my heart out too much and walked around in the rain too much today - stupid frees and what not - my stomache hurts and me and mumma can't figure out what it is thats hurting or what even its called where im pointing!

God Bless Us, Everyone

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