Jesus' Blood Never Fails Me
I feel delicate.
I've been worrying a lot about money - it seems I actually can't afford to be at university...even with the Student Loans Company.
I've been getting worked up over not being involved in a church or feeling very part of a church.
I've been missing my family lots - even though I'm gonna see them in 12 days.
I've just been
soaking. God gave me a picture.
I was wondering around trying to make a movie, where I'm one of the characters, but I'm making the movie myself. There'd be a scene where I had to prop the camera up because I fall down, then I have to cut out certain bits like me walking away from the camera and getting in position.
And God just said...you have me to help you with your dreams. I'm your film crew. I'm your director, your camera man, your sound man, your makeup artist. Just come to me and I will guide you.
He is so good.
God you are so good to me. You put peace in my heart, yet you put the loudest joy in my heart also! I just want a deeper relationship with you. You've stolen my heart, captured it, it's all yours.
Gracious Words
I realised something today...
Throughout the year before University, I prayed like mad for a Christian friend, and for me to have some girl-friends, because I don't have many girl-friends.
I live with 8 girls and 2 guys. How cool is that?! God totally has blessed me, I've been here for 6 weeks and I've only just realised!!! How open aren't my eyes!!!
So...maybe try opening your eyes up a bit.
I read Proverbs 16:24 this morning about the power of encouragement. It's amazing how we're designed so that when we're complimented/encouraged we feel a bit more confident or happy. And I guess the bible has hit it on the head again (as it normally does) by saying
Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and health to the bones.
And it's not exactly hard for us to speak words of encouragment to someone each day is it? On average, a woman speaks 20,000 words a day, and men speak 7, 000. So it can't be difficult for 10 of those words to be a sentence of encouragement can it!?
Think about the biggest compliment you've ever been given...Mine would've have to be one of my friends saying that I was beautiful. 3 words...simple!
Try and give someone the biggest compliment/words of encouragement they will ever have been given.
Lemme know yours :)
God is good.
Freedom
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You girls are amazing.
What a lonely moment
Well this is a low point.
Tonight is the Halloween night for the students night out, so I'm not going.
Also adding to the reason why I shouldn't go is the fact that I have no money because it's being saved for the wedding.
I really just want to go to someones house, a friends house, hang out, watch tv. Be in a house. I'm confind to this little room with nothing more to entertain me than a laptop, music and a guitar. I know that seems enough to entertain someone...but it's company I want.
I want to see my friends. I want to hang out with people. I want to have a chat with someone.
But, I've started properly learning guitar. I've learn E Minor. Fingers hurt a little, but it's all good. I'll keep you updated. Whoever you are.
It would be nice to know if anyone reads this. Maybe leave a comment?
I'm just gonna spend time with God.
Over and ou
t.
Journey Log 1 - The World is NOT enough for me.
So this year is the journey to my marriage. I've just started university also, but will keep trying to share my story of, in a year; beginning uni, leaving home, arranging a marriage and starting my own home and family.
And I feel like I've just written an intro for a presentor on a reality TV show!
I've just been to CU with my new friend Becky. We're going through Romans, my favourite book of the bible at the moment. Romans 5. T'was some good stuff.
I also re-found this
clip.
I absolutely love the song behind it (Take The World by Tim Hughes).
I've just been spending some time with God with the song in the background, thinking about the discussion at CU and I couldn't believe it!
Starting university was nothing that I could've been prepared for! It was a whole new experience.New environment, new friends, standing on my own two feet. One big thing that stuck out was what I should be like. A shining light. It's so hard to define the line between these two lives I have upon me.
My whole life I've been surrounded by church. Christian family, Christian friends, being at church events, spending a fair amount of my days at the church office. I did have a group of non-christian friends at school, but now looking back on it I guess my life has been pretty sheltered and naive.
Here, I live with one other Christian (Becky) and 10 non-Christians. I thank God each day for the friends I have here. Everyone is so lovely.
I guess I just don't know what to do when it comes to things like clubbing. I love hanging out with people, and I like my drink, but I've never been to a club or in that sort of environment. There was a UV party last week which I regret not going to now because it looked so good!! I trust all my friends so I don't feel in danger...it's just something new and a little bit daunting. But I'm gonna go
Something else which is totally alien to me is not being involved in church. I feel a bit at a loose end. If you read my blog, you will know how heavily involved in church life I have been. At present, I only go along on Sundays. I don't get to mid-week stuff because it's too far away, and I haven't really told anyone about my singing and leading worship or running youth and kids work. I think for a while I just want to stand back a bit and get to know people in the church, rather than people knowing who I am because I do stuff. Although I know how frustrating it is when people don't volunteer to help for things, so I feel fairly bad.
I am desperate for someone to pray with. So...I'm praying for someone to pray with!! How silly! But I am. I want someone that I can get excited with when God does stuff. If I share my excitement with someone else...then I recon it would flow out into my friends around me which is what I want to see!
So anyway, I'm not the only one who has gone into an alien situation. My college/church/Impact friends Darren, Tim, Gary-Lee, Serena, Lydia, Rosie, Lauren, Jon, Jack and others, we've all left each other for university, jobs...separate lives. It's really sad and quite scary because it means we're all getting older and at one point we always thought we'd be an amazing tight-knit 'Lemons' group!
But here's a message for you guys:
I love you! So does God! You know that! And even though we're all split off - God is doing amazing stuff! Think back at our lives...Urg! It's so exciting!
I love you all and miss you!
xxx
Romans 5:3-5
Engaged
Yes I am.
:)
Had a meal with my Mummy and Daddy and Mummy and Daddy in law to be tonight :)
Was a lot of fun. A bit embarrasing and awkward at times :)
But I'm so blessed by them all. So blessed with the family I'm marrying in to. So blessed that both parents get along spiffingly. So blessed of my future husband.
Wanna know how he proposed?
We went to 'The Lakes' for a holiday - camping. (The Lake District)
One night, it was raining extremely hard, any harder would've been a storm.
We tried to lite our 'Griliput' under the umbrella we were crouching under and after about 15 minutes it started going on its own. So we had a little camp fire - in the almost-storm.
Then we sat down with a glass of wkd each and got chatting about us and our lives and stuff. Then we started talking about what we liked about each other...then Jak said 'so let's go.'
And as I got up to leave, Jak knelt down, (in a puddle) and held a beautiful ring out and 'popped the question.' It was so lovely and I was so unbelievably happy, I dont think I've been that happy in a long time and I said yes!
So tonight we got together with both parents and started talking about the wedding. Wow. I'm so excited to start organising it. I love organising big things, so this will be a lot of fun.
God has blessed me so much constantly and I'm so grateful. He knows all that I need and so I'm more than happy to bow down to him and be blessed by him.
Do th
e same. It can only get better.
I was wondering around trying to make a movie, where I'm one of the characters, but I'm making the movie myself. There'd be a scene where I had to prop the camera up because I fall down, then I have to cut out certain bits like me walking away from the camera and getting in position.
