Know the real you
Welcome Miss Harwood to the 'know the real you' post of the day.Thank you very much, it's a plessure to be here.
As you know, I ask you some questions, and hopefully, we find out some juicey stuff. Okay?Shoot!
We'll start with the basics...Name?Miss Harwood
Full name I mean.Oh, Harriet Rachel Harwood.
Ooooh, 'Rachel' very nice! *ahem*...Family members?Dad called Ted, Mum called Brenda, Brother called Ben, Sister-in-law-to-be called Nicola, Dog called Chester.
Full house then.Indeed!
Home address?Are you crazy??? I'm not gonna give out any personal information of contact. That's just for dumbasses!
But you may wanna get fan mail!If they're that bothered, they can get my email address...
Fair enough. So you won't give us anything like mobile number or anything?Pah! *shakes head* *mutters* dumbass
Lets find out some facts. Favourite food?Ice cream, no doubt about it.
Even in the winter?Mostly in the winter!
O-k. erm...favourite TV programme?Neighbours. It's just so gripping and thrilling! haha, nah, its the only programme I watch to be honest.
Work-aholic?No, more of a net-aholic.
Favourite verse?1 Corinthians 13.
Favourite Colour?Between blue and orange. Tricky one there.
What about a mixture?ew, no. You'd probably get some kinda mankey brown...i think.
True, true. so erm...Describe your look.Okay, erm...long light brown hair, blue eyes, salad-fingers, I'm tall-ish; which I hate, I'll definitly become a cripple one day because of my bad back! I think thats it really.
Cripple? Sure you're not one now? I've seen the way you sit.Excuuuuse me?! Do you wanna do this interview or not mayte???
Okay, sorry. I'll just mumble my rude comments to myself.Yeah. FINE. Do that.
So, What make phone you got?Samsung.
What have you done in the last hour?Read the bible, sat on the loo, emailed
Sammy Boy, spoken to Tom, Craig, Charmaine and Sylvie, written a letter, got the washing in and watched Neighbours.
Oooooooh, Sam. So whats going on there?Just emailing about stuff.
I think we'll come back on to that one a bit later...Favourite band?Yet another hard decision blog. It's between
Switchfoot and
The Afters. But
Switchfoot have an exception because
The Afters are pretty new to me...so I'd have to say
Switchfoot.
Do you hava job?Nope, Wish I did though as you can read in
previous posts.
How boring! Okay, what do you do in your spare time?Work (school work *yawns*), Email, Read, go out with friends.
Are you quite a scheduled person?Ish. But what do you mean by that? Because everyone has a schedule and plans.
Do you have a strict routine.Not really.
Tells us your normal week then...*sigh* ok, Monday: School, tutor, band practise
Tuesday: School, free house in the evening.
Wednesday: School.
Thursday: School, Sometimes meet with
Amber and Sarah before for din,
Youth.
Friday: School.
Saturday: Sometimes town. Or nothing. Once a month
Encounter.
Sunday:
Church, every other week my nan round.
And thats my life basically. Day after day, repeat after repeat.
*Snoring*AHEM!
Huh, what? Oh sorry. Okay erm. This is getting quite boring now. So some juicey stuff...Describe your scariest nightmare ever.I'm lying in bed, but I feel like I'm awake. So it's a pretty deep sleep. And I can here nothing. Everythings silent. I can't even here my parents snore. And my eyes are shut and they can't open. And suddenly, I'm in like, this box and there something in the corner. I can't make out what it is, but its just SO clear and its as if I don't need my glasses. It just sticks there. And then next, its like a TV and all the grey, black and white lines start coming across the 'screen' except the 'screen' is my eyeballs. And everything just starts shaking but everything is so clear. Although I can't explain it. And to this day, I still have it. It's a re-occuring dream. And it totally freaks me out!!
Woah! How long have you had that nightmare?Years. Since as long as I can remember.
Erm. Maybe you should go and see someone about it.*Stares in silence*
Ahem, o-kaaaaay...Who are you most closest to in your family?I'd have to say my mum at this moment in time.
'This moment in time'? Care to explain?...Sure thang. Well, I'm going through a challenging time. See, this awesome guy has moved 120,000 miles away for 3 years. And I we were best friends, really close. And so I'm struggling with that. But I've got an awesome family supporting me and God to lean on. And my mums being SO supportive over it all and its great. We've become really great, definitly best friends! S'all gravy.
Awesome guy ay? Okay, fine. You've guessed it. Actually, you probably all guessed it in about July!
Yeah?Yes okay. I confirm it. y'all happy now?
Indeed we are! You gonna tell us anything else?Well, maybe in posts to come. But not now.
Well, I'll finish here and wait for these 'posts to come' you talk about. To finish off would you like to say anything to your viewers?Only this... I miss you.
awww. Well Thank you missharwood's blog viewers for tuning into another exciting post entry by miss harwood. Until next time...
None of this is easy
I'm numb.
And I wanna stay numb.
Can't open up my heart.
And thats how I want.
You don't know what you're talking about.
Yes I'm struggling, but what do you know?
You've never been where I am now.
You've never felt my flow.
I wanna stay an outsider.
Not know anything.
Have no-one know my name.
'cause it's easier.
This is me.
Stuck in this rut.
Knowing purely how I feel.
But you can't understand that.
Why won't you leave me.
Stop telling me.
I don't wanna listen.
I want to stay be.
I want to stay in my box.
Do nothing all week.
Its the only place I can be me.
As what you call a freak.
It's all bottled up.
I have to keep it from you.
Because I know you don't want to listen.
Do you?
I've spelt it out to you before.
And yet you still ignore me.
You only think of yourself.
You had your chance.
I'm different.
I've changed.
You think in a bad way.
But it's what I want.
I know you're still here.
Still in my heart.
And I hope and pray for your safety.
While we're apart.
In loving memory
I miss h club.
h club I miss.
I miss you h club.
you miss I h club.
Recently I've been thinking a bit about the holiday club we did for the kids over the holidays last year. It was such awesome fun. kicked ass. It really did.
Having Megaman and The Professor IN PERSON hang out with us day to day. Having new arrivals, like Mini-Megaman, Mini-professor, Jelly-Man and heaps of others and following their adventures.
It was so cool seeing how God was moving in these kid's lives! And just becoming friends with them. You learnt so much about them in just one week and then at the end of it, we met their parents and got chatting to them.
The kids really looked up to us 'leaders' which was quite weird...cuz I mean, it's me!
me...me...me...?
I remember when I was a little girl and I used to go to stuff like h club, and I used to cling to older female leaders cuz I thought they were cool! Makes me laugh now, but we all used to do it!
But giving up that week, just to hang out with cool people, learn stuff about people, get messy, embarrase myself all for God...of course I'd do it again!
It was such awesome weather we had an awesome water fight! So cool getting people wet even if I did love them to bits! Man....I so wanna be there right now.
Stupid fun.
Nada Al Blog
I have done jack-all today. Nil-pwa! Finito. Nothing. Nada. And its been so frustrating. All I've been wanting to do was go job hunting. - doesn't that seem wrong? A 15 year old girl wanting to go out and find a job?! Which has also lead me to become frustrated with not having done my GCSE's yet. It all just seems such a tease from now up til May. I just wanna get them over and done with. Like a kettle boiling.
So today, I feel, has been pretty pointless. And so has this week really. I've been ill - off - and just lying on the sofa, wrapped in my duvet, watching TV and chatting. All week. And then Thursday, I was finally so annoyed of this pathetic life I had been leading, lying on the sofa, I got up and went out to youth. And I loved it. Interacting with people face-to-face, and they weren't my mum!
But today, it all went bottoms up really. I supposed I should've phoned a friend to ask to hang out with. But to be honest, I just couldn't be bothered! And I didn't wanna go anywhere. But all the exciting people aren't here in some way or another.
But through this week, I've learnt that my mummy is the best mum in the world. She's taken care of me this whole week. And she's run to my right hand everytime I've rung my little bell!! But yesterday she told me something that she'll do to make me happy in the future. And its something quite big for a mum. But I cannot reveal all at the moment. And I'm not sure how long until I can reveal. Or maybe I cannot reveal until it happens. Who knows. Maybe this ol' blog may be demolished by the time I'm ready to reveal...but thats something to discuss later.
But while we're on the subject of blogs demolishing...why is everyone stopping? Anyone know why? I think I do. Because 2006 is gonna be an awesome year. SO much is gonna happen this year and theres just not enough time for blogging. Thats right, I said it.
Theres just not enough time for blogging. I'm finding it hard to blog now. To let out my heart, but maybe its because the stupid elephant in the corner is staring at me, reading my every word.
Stupid Elephant.
Eagle's Wings
The time comes when we have to get out of our comfort zone.
In a book I was reading this morning, it said:
God's direction usually begins with discomfort. 'like an eagle stirs up its nest...The Lord...led him...'. Eagles learn to fly when their mum pushes them out of the nest and over the cliff's edge. Can you imagine their thoughts? 'Mum what you playing at!' But it's only when the eagle is forced out of its comfort zone that it discovers it was born to fly, spreads its wings, releases its power and finds its place in the heavens. Has god been stirring up your nest? Relax! He's leading you!That really encouraged me, because recently God has been stirring up 'my nest' and making me think and Ive become real nervous! Ive been praying, seeking, reading and I still wasn't sure weither to lead worship in
the bomb. But my friend Debby gave me that push over the cliff and forced me to fly. I know its about a month away, but Im not as nervous as I was because I know God's leading me!
Which is such a relief! I'm not doing it on my own, I'm not doing it for myself, I'm not doing it to please anyone else except my God. Which Im extremely please and happy to go for!
Sunset
Not many of you know this, but photography has become something quite real to me recently. Everyone loves photo, but its something I'm quite passionate about. As I've said
in recent posts, I love sunsets, fireworks, and pretty much anything that is a beautiful scenery. It captures me and makes me just wanna stare at it and watch it. Seeing all these things puts a smile on my face. I just enjoy the wonders.
I was watching a film earlier and I looked out the window and could see a beautiful sunset. I ran upstairs, grabbed my camera off my desk and went and took photographs. Okay, so to some of you it may be sad, but I was enjoying myself just taking pictures of the sunset and seeing how many different positions I could get and different looks. I spent about 20 minutes and I was enjoying myself. I wasn't thinking about anything else and I completely forgot about the film.
Next year when I go to college, I've already chosen what subjects I wanna do: Business Studies, ICT, Geography and of course; Photography. Except, I've been told to get into the college that I want, I need a GCSE in Art. Which is impossible for me. But theres been a break through and I've been told that I can make my own portfolio and send in with my application. Man, I hope I get it. Its such a strong thing I wanna do.
So as I end this post, I shall leave you with some photos that I took.
Happy New Year.
Mwah!
Welcome...
...To 2006.
Happy New Year!
