Two pence and a Thought
I heard through the grape-vine that you guys like to read whats going on in my mind. My deep thoughts. My crazy beneath.
So wheres my head at now aye? I'm wondering too!
I think I'm so confused, worried and bothered about heaps of stuff, because there's just so much to think about. And I've had no time to process and think about it.
Year 11 is ripping it out of me. Literally. There's so much work to be done and theres is no way near enough hours in the day to get it all done. Drama GCSE taking up about 5-8 hours a week to rehearse. DT coursework was meant to be completed nearly a week ago now and so thats taking up my spare time. Other little pathetic pieces of 'homework' that teachers give me just to take spite and get me more stressed because its some kind of sick joke. Will all this really ever finish? I'm actually looking forward to my GCSE's! To get into the exam rota for a month. Arrrrh, bliss! No pointless PSE lessons. No hanging around at lunchtimes. Not early mornings! Woohoo!
Sleep. In the bible, its says sleep is a gift from God...Why am I not getting that gift?!!! I'm having to drug myself at night now to konk out. - Doesn't sound too good aye?! Haha...ah well, we all have our mental issues. *cough cough* disabled nose.
Church. I may got shot for this part! But it's starting to feel like, I dunno, not work exactly. But just heaps of pressure. It's awesome being in the band and now a worship leader. And it's awesome getting encouragment from things that I could never think of (Thank You God), but it just seems like most people are finding it a struggle. I know I'm finding balancing God and my work a struggle. The youth just seems so tired and not as energised as they used to be. Which is discouraging for me, because I KNOW something hauuge is gonna happen this year, and I really don't want them to miss it. God is gonna move some day soon. And I cannot wait!
I'm always bankrupt in March. Theres mothers day, 8 birthdays and I always seem to have more of a expensive social life for some annoying reason! It think it should be named expensarch. (expensive march - just incase you didn't get it!)
Love. Sorry if anyone who is reading this, does this - but it really gets to me when people say 'Will I ever get my prince/princess?' And they're in the ages of teens. It's like...You're only about a tenth through your life...and you're already wanting your 'prince/princess'. Awesome if you've found him/her. But if you're searching, of course you're not gonna find 'the one'. You've got your whole life time to meet the person. Why waste it looking for things that come all in good time?
Myself. I've got so much to express. So much stuff locked away in my mind...I just need the
key. I know there's stuff there, but when its gonna come - I do not know! Because I've been spending so much time with my family the last couple of months, I've really been able to come out of my shell! Maybe Ben and Nicola would say a bit too much, but it's fun. I'm still a
huge fan of music, which will never change.
Mothers Day. Happy Mothers Day Mum! I have the best mum. ner ner ner ner ner!
xx
Friday night chit chat
I love sitting here, dancing and singing along to my music. Being a computer loser on a friday night! My parents in the other room, not hearing me sing my heart out (pah!) and me just going crazy in my own little world.
I hate it when I'm quiet. It's really not me. I've become real close with my family recently and I've totally let myself go. Me and
Ben been mucking around, havin mini-fights to get to the loo first or something, me and Nicola (all Nicola!!!) being horrible to each other in a jokey-kinda way, me and dad just always laughing how we do - sometimes its even at nothing, me and mum just having spontanious hugs and binging on cups of teas and watching Neighbours together, and even just having Chester greet me in the morning, when I'm still half asleep and when I get home from school is awesome. I really actually feel appreciated and in place with my family!
It's quite a lonely msn-friday-night. I don't know where everyones gone. Probably some party that I'm not invited to. But I'm okay. I've got Tom and
Serena to chat to!
The internet is quite a weird thing. Actually, so is a lot of stuff...
For exemple...
When you loose something and people say 'It'll be the last place you look'...You're not gonna look anywhere else once you've found it are you??? So why say it?!
When someone says you name, and you turn around and say 'yes'...why don't we say 'no'???
Why do we complain when its boiling hot, but then we also complain when its cold...are we never satisfied?
Why are all the nice tastey, mouth watering foods so high in fat?
Anyone know???
I'm sorry for this cop-out post. I might update with some songs or something later...if I've generous and I get enough begging!
xx
Mayaluffly
May
Oh what a beautiful summers day
When we all turn gay
Oh no wait, thats the hay!
May
From little miss tray
Just show your friend fay
The way...
May
No its not june
And no its not a prune
Its just beautiful May.
May...
May...
May...
I'm really looking forward to May actually. For numerous reasons.
GCSE's.I do my GCSE's. Which for some weird reason, I'm looking forward to do. Maybe its the fact, that I won't have to go to school every day, that I won't be at school the whole day, that I can have lye-ins, I guess it gives me a boost of satisfaction that they have finally come around, and one day soon I shall be leaving Millais for good, and heading off to College. Not knowing what to expect, not knowing who I'll stay friends with, not knowing what courses I'll take, not knowing how I'll grow and whose gonna watch me grow and just not knowing where God's gonna take me in life. Which is most exciting.
Let's Go.I always get so excited about
Let's Go! It's like a chill week to serve other people. Which I enjoy very highly.
See! But its just so much fun, face painting little children (no matter how wrong you go, they always like it!!!), wearing that bright yellow luminous jackets, running around with burgers, cakes and drinks, and in your break...going on the rides and playing basketball and football and just having so much fun! It's SO worth giving up my weekend. I'd be up for it so much more, but I guess if it was more than once a year, it wouldn't be as exciting.
May Camp.I've never been to
May Camp, but if it means I get to spend a weekend with my church friends, chilling, worshipping and learning more about God, then I'm there! If it's anything like DalesDown,
Encounter, Soul survivor or NewDay, then I'm sure I'll definitly get something out of it! And hey, its another thing on my calendar!! Woop Woop...more social life!!
My Birthday!I feel like I've done all the good parties in my past birthdays. Like swimming, bowling, measl, BBQ's, Sleepovers, Shopping, Beach and loads more that I can't remember. But this year, I really don't want a 'Missharwood's Birthday Party', all I wanna do is go to the beach with loadsa friends for the day, and just hang out, play sports, eat food, maybe swim if its warm enough! It was awesome last year when we went. Not the warmest weather, but it was bareable.
May
Oh what a beautiful summers day
Been somebody else
Well I don’t know what to do when things go wrong
And it’s a hopeless situation god knows how
And I know
And I find
Some peace of mind
Who’s the man that talks about you now
Became a hopeless situation when he left town
And I know
Yeah I know
This peace of mind
‘Cause I’m stupid like this
And I’m stupid like that
I’m stupid ‘cause I make a mess of things to get you back
I never want to see
You happy without me
I wish I could have been somebody else.
Standing in the single’s bar I compromise the things we are
I have to say you know I’m nothing new
I drink expensive brand of coke
The college girls think I’m a joke
The days are running past
Each one’s like the last
‘Cause I’m stupid like this
And I’m stupid like that
I’m stupid ‘cause I make a mess of things to get you back
I never want to see
You happy without me
I wish I could have been somebody else.
Each one’s like the last .
