Charlie
Why does God give us passions before he gives it to us.Sounds like a simple answer to a stupid question. But I don't understand it.
I have such a passion that it aches in my heart. I feel I have so much love to give, but I can't.
Do I have to direct it somewhere else? Should I use it for other things? Or just store it up for that child?
I want to be a mother.
I want to go through those 'horrible' 9 months of pregnancy, have an 'outtie', get back ache, give birth, and at the end of that hardship...have a child of mine.
Seems like a big statement for an 18 year old.
But Gods given me this heart for a long time.
Written on my heart is Proverbs 31.
I've always wanted to be the best wife, mum, friend, sister in the world.
I know I won't be.
I can't.
But not being able to try makes me feel physically sick.
It brings tears to my eyes thinking about me ever holding my own son/daughter in my arms.
Having them be totally dependent on me for everything.
I can't do anything except cry out to God. He knows why I have this passion inside of me.
Am I too impatient?
posted by MissHarwood @ 20:00
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