Holy Spirit, Gift of God: November 2008

Friday, November 14, 2008

When I listen to Switchfoot, I feel so at peace. I close my eyes, sing the words in my heart and suddenly a smile comes upon my face.

I start to feel the joy I haven't felt in years.

I can't control my smile. It constantly expands.
When I take a deep breath, I can smell the fresh air of then.

I get so excited and happy that tears fall from my smiling eyes.

Nothing seems to matter. I continue like this until the song finished.
.

Which at that point I open my eyes...

...and get hurled back to "reality".

I then start to wonder what more I'm meant to live for.
.

Will I ever be as happy as I was then? It was pure joy and content. Did I take it for granted?

Was it all because of the people I had around me? Or was it because of who I was in God?

Am I worse off now?

Or am I being ungrateful and not realising what I've got this year?

I miss then, I miss it, I miss her, I miss him, I miss everyone, I miss everything.

I miss myself.

I'm coming back, I promise.