Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Beginning of this

Over the last couple of years, I've let my creative spirit in me become squashed and abandoned.
I used to write poems and songs, I used to blog constantly. I still have all my poems and songs in my bedroom back in Horsham and I plan to carry them around me wherever I go throughout my life. They're a reminder of where I've been, what I've learnt, who I loved, who I was.

Sometimes I think they mean more than pictures ever could. A photograph can be taken in a second, whereas a song takes time, commitment, deep thought and passion. Songs can paint better pictures than any photograph can. The intricate detail put into it, the heart, soul and passion spilt out on to that piece of paper. As soon as you start writing, that song is yours.

The most prodigious quality about heart-filled songs, is how they can match the feelings in someone else's soul. How they can make someone else fall to tears, or get that deep breathe in their chest of delight.

I've abandoned all of this. Dare I say it, became materialistic.

As I look at it, and God shows me the pureness of all this creativity that he's given me a passion for, I'm smiling but am so scared. I'm scared of failing, but what do I intend to become? I don't want to become famous. I want to use my talents for his glory. I want to use it to draw close to him just like I did back then.

As I close my eyes, and listen to the gentle plucking of guitar strings, I see it all. It's too much for me to know how to interpret. So I can only try throughout my life in music and lyrics.

Here I come, a fragile starter trying to reach her full potential.

Sunday, May 09, 2010

You changed my life



















The stars spread across the sky
on the coldest of all nights.
I'm lying with my back on the cold grass
staring, watching the beautiful sights.

Glimpses of hope as I see shooting stars
my eyes widen, waiting desperately.
Twinkling and shining, all to be seen
She'll be waiting for you, thats me.

So peaceful, clear and silent
slowly turning into lonely.
Wanting to share with you
this delicate symphony.

I hear grass crushed under
you're coming closer.
I stop focusing on the stars
my heart beats faster.

You wrap your arms round me
suddenly I'm safe.
Never lonely, always smiling
forever, this place.

The wind blows, our eyes meet
this is the start of something perfect.
Suddenly so close, never apart
my hand in yours, the perfect fit.

I want you and need you
forever and always.
Our souls living as one
our hearts to never betray.