Thursday, January 07, 2010

In God's Hands

I've had a lot to think about this past month.
And not much of it has been easy.

I've done stupid things, said stupid things, acting in stupid ways.
And as a result of my actions, I've hurt and upset people. Disappointed people.
I wish I could have not caused those emotions and heart break. I prayed desperately for other ways.

I've been immature, selfish and fragile. How do you handle yourself when like that?

Coming to the King is the only answer that has worked for me.
I know how God see's me, what he calls me and how he see's my heart. I know I'm precious to him and am worth all the trouble.

I guess it would be a lot easier if I felt other people felt the same. But then we're not called to be people who are like-able. We're called to be like Jesus. And I'm desperate for that.
So one of the first things I need to do is to ask for your forgiveness.

The next first thing...

I go have a chat with God.