Wednesday, October 28, 2009

What a lonely moment

Well this is a low point.
Tonight is the Halloween night for the students night out, so I'm not going.
Also adding to the reason why I shouldn't go is the fact that I have no money because it's being saved for the wedding.

I really just want to go to someones house, a friends house, hang out, watch tv. Be in a house. I'm confind to this little room with nothing more to entertain me than a laptop, music and a guitar. I know that seems enough to entertain someone...but it's company I want.
I want to see my friends. I want to hang out with people. I want to have a chat with someone.

But, I've started properly learning guitar. I've learn E Minor. Fingers hurt a little, but it's all good. I'll keep you updated. Whoever you are.
It would be nice to know if anyone reads this. Maybe leave a comment?

I'm just gonna spend time with God.




Over and out.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Journey Log 1 - The World is NOT enough for me.

So this year is the journey to my marriage. I've just started university also, but will keep trying to share my story of, in a year; beginning uni, leaving home, arranging a marriage and starting my own home and family.

And I feel like I've just written an intro for a presentor on a reality TV show!

I've just been to CU with my new friend Becky. We're going through Romans, my favourite book of the bible at the moment. Romans 5. T'was some good stuff.
I also re-found this clip.
I absolutely love the song behind it (Take The World by Tim Hughes).

I've just been spending some time with God with the song in the background, thinking about the discussion at CU and I couldn't believe it!

Starting university was nothing that I could've been prepared for! It was a whole new experience.New environment, new friends, standing on my own two feet. One big thing that stuck out was what I should be like. A shining light. It's so hard to define the line between these two lives I have upon me.

My whole life I've been surrounded by church. Christian family, Christian friends, being at church events, spending a fair amount of my days at the church office. I did have a group of non-christian friends at school, but now looking back on it I guess my life has been pretty sheltered and naive.

Here, I live with one other Christian (Becky) and 10 non-Christians. I thank God each day for the friends I have here. Everyone is so lovely.
I guess I just don't know what to do when it comes to things like clubbing. I love hanging out with people, and I like my drink, but I've never been to a club or in that sort of environment. There was a UV party last week which I regret not going to now because it looked so good!! I trust all my friends so I don't feel in danger...it's just something new and a little bit daunting. But I'm gonna go

Something else which is totally alien to me is not being involved in church. I feel a bit at a loose end. If you read my blog, you will know how heavily involved in church life I have been. At present, I only go along on Sundays. I don't get to mid-week stuff because it's too far away, and I haven't really told anyone about my singing and leading worship or running youth and kids work. I think for a while I just want to stand back a bit and get to know people in the church, rather than people knowing who I am because I do stuff. Although I know how frustrating it is when people don't volunteer to help for things, so I feel fairly bad.

I am desperate for someone to pray with. So...I'm praying for someone to pray with!! How silly! But I am. I want someone that I can get excited with when God does stuff. If I share my excitement with someone else...then I recon it would flow out into my friends around me which is what I want to see!

So anyway, I'm not the only one who has gone into an alien situation. My college/church/Impact friends Darren, Tim, Gary-Lee, Serena, Lydia, Rosie, Lauren, Jon, Jack and others, we've all left each other for university, jobs...separate lives. It's really sad and quite scary because it means we're all getting older and at one point we always thought we'd be an amazing tight-knit 'Lemons' group!

But here's a message for you guys:

I love you! So does God! You know that! And even though we're all split off - God is doing amazing stuff! Think back at our lives...Urg! It's so exciting!

I love you all and miss you!
xxx

Romans 5:3-5