Thursday, October 02, 2008

Lonely Nation

Wow. I'm so ignorant.

Moved house tuesday. Definitly one of the most difficult things I've ever done. I cried. A fair amount. Still do when I realise my 'home' is now someone elses home who I don't know very well, and am probably closest to the dog than to the family.

Her names Pudding, she's 3 years old, Chocolate Labrador, She cheeky, She loves the sofa more than her bed, She'll be the one to come hug me in the mornings when they've left for school at 730 and I'm all on my own.

See, it's sad.
Sometimes it's just easier with a dog. I miss my dog.

God has blessed me though. My car is back on the road, so I can feel the wind in the fans and listen to Jon Foremanie everywhere I go. RESURRECT ME!
Had an awesome weekend with church. Oak Hall Manor.

I don't think I've ever felt so loved and lonely all at the same time.
This world is rubbish at comforting. Love going back to my room and being comforted by God. He's awesome. The only one who can.
And already I'm sat here with a smile on my face.

So, what is it about being so loved and lonely at the same time.
Being loved...
People appreciate what you do, some in awe of how you do it. Blessing you with support, prayer, inviting over for dinner.
They say their bit of encouragement, I make a mental note, and then we chat a bit more and learn more about each other. Where I normally say more than I should and they think 'Geez...'
But it doesn't put them off.

I'm gonna be brave here.
I've never felt such compassion before from a church than I have at Cowfold.
I stuff up so much, and they hug me and pour on me God's love.
At my previous church, I probably wouldn't get anything.
It's exciting seeing all the different churches.

I like standing back and seeing what God's doing.
I'm smiling again!

posted by MissHarwood @ 17:05 1 Comments